I know I’m months ahead for this, and the fact that I’m 25 means I don’t get an actual summer vacation, but it is on my mind.
How will I spend my summer?
How I thought I’d spend my summer:
Keep working. Continue to make loan payments. Wait for the phone to ring with good news. Get word that my surgery has been rescheduled. Have surgery?
How I could spend my summer:
Keep working. Make as many loan payments as possible. Wait for the phone to ring with good news. Let go of the possibility of moving up surgery anyway. Service commitment?
What was supposed to happen:
I was suppose to spend my summer slaving away & wishing I was outside, and all because I’m so close to paying off one loan that once I have one left ALL of my money is going towards the last one. I’m supposed to be a slave to the man and all because I would really like to be able to recover in peace, or at least as peacefully as possible. I’m suppose to spend the majority of my free time, if not all of it, close to home hoping & praying that the hospital calls to tell me my surgery date has been moved up. After I get “the call” I’m suppose to drop everything, grab my bag, and head to Boston with the sole focus of improving my quality of life.
What has happened:
I haven’t gotten the job(s) that I’ve applied for because the powers that be have decided not to hire for the position (thanks economy!). In fact I could get laid off from my current job, because even though we’ve been assured that everything possible will be done so we can keep our jobs the crack down might have the opposite effect and people could quit and/or lay offs could come anyway. I’ve gotten so close to paying off one of my student loans that achieving a long term goal just might be sooner than I ever anticipated. I received a very intriguing email………
What could happen:
I could inquire further into the very intriguing email and pursue the opportunity. However this would mean taking a leave from my job, possibly not getting it back afterwards. Possibly asking a parent to pay off my loans for a month, but I hope not. Putting P.T. and other pre-op activities on hold, which I really wouldn’t mind at this point. Having a summer adventure in a place I never thought I’d go, or even consider going. Having surgery on its originally scheduled date.
Other things to consider:
What happens if surgery is rescheduled?
Do I end my summer adventure?
I might not be able to handle and adventure right now, physically more than mentally.
Money would be an issue, on both sides
Adventure is adventure
It would be a nice change
It could end up being on of the best summers of my life
I would have something to do
Having something to do would be better than waiting around all summer
This could be the closest thing I’ll have to a vacation
Should I let go of the idea that things could be rescheduled?
Should I let go of the assumption that things will be rescheduled?
Do I make a back up plan?
What kind of back up plan should I make?
Should I just let things be and let life play out?
I haven’t made any major decisions yet. There are so many other things to consider it’s pretty much impossible to jump to a decision here. The plan has delayed enough as is. So do I take a gamble and let this whole process go on for longer?
It’s a big gamble, and in every possible direction at that. This is all being built on assumptions, pretty much, from all directions. Great way to make plans right? I’m tempted to say I’m done taking chances, for now; there are too many factors as is. I really shouldn’t be bringing something else into the equation, no matter how much I really would like to do something with my summer.
There’s also the reality that there’s no way, or at least a .5% chance that both things could happen, the dates just don’t line up. If anyone out there has a time machine I could use though leave a comment. If I had surgery by the end of this month it still wouldn’t be enough time to heal & take off, at least not safely. The last estimate I got from my doctor was hospital for a week, home care for about 3 weeks, then in patient rehab for a to-be-determined amount of time, then out patient P.T.
I’m not a math whiz but each time I try to “run the numbers” it doesn’t work out.
There’s always a chance that both things could happen, but those chances are slim.
The chances of both actually happening are even slimmer.
How will I spend my summer?
God and I have some talking to do.
Or should I say we have more talking to do.
“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”
-Harriet Tubman
